Yes sorry about that, it has.
Well I think if you read between the lines it was obvious I was experiencing a somewhat meltdown. I knew I was. I was trying to ride the wave of balance between doing everything I can to get a job, build the CV, be productive and be relaxed and fresh enough to not lose my mind and actually give my best. I managed to reach the shore without fully melting but it was a close call.
I have my big dream holiday coming up and I may be nuts but it cost a lot of money (my only redundancy indulgence) and I've waited so long that I didn't want to ruin it by being stressed or ill. I often get a virus when I take leave, I have an awesome sick record but as soon as the adrenaline of working leaves me, wham! So I decided to do no volunteering in April and as I've been in the same PA role for a while I feel pretty much on top of that. So it's been a month of feeling more confident and in my more idle moments more clarity about what skills I have I'm not marketing or being aware of.
Still not very far forward on exactly what I'd like to focus on doing but getting there incrementally. Pleased to find the stepping back is not making me become less ambitious or confident, that was the fear.
March was very busy, finished teaching people how to catalogue the books and wrote procedures for that. Effectively planning for sharing or handing over. Similarly in my current role I'm writing a huge desk notes transition memo type thing. Helpful for me to order my thoughts and helpful for the next person too.
I ran an Auction in March which was successful on many fronts, the item sold for it's reserve, the artist was content with the money made, the community group were happy with the money made, the charity were happy and the buyer was ecstatic. No exaggeration. I now totally understand the 40% commission galleries take is not too much. Lot's of work. A real sense of achievement and made some firm friends too.
Still looking and applying and have volunteered to run a commissioning task for the place I'm working at, not sure if they can or will take me up on the offer but I put a good case forward.
Onwards and sideways!
Jen
